Wednesday, June 30, 2010

crimson sky and dusky evening

In continuation to the former post, here I write about the 'feeling in my gut'

When the sky is crimson but making my room little dark, when my bed smells of me and i smell of my bed...when the evening looks bright but the cloud looks like my smudged kohl

I feel the wrenched evening when i sat and dreamt will give way to stark dusk..and sooner to pithch charcoal night.

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I watch the ivy green leaves and the black branch, it is lingering on to...it is drizzling, and the branch looks more black...i go perky on the becoming contrast of beautiful colors. The color of red ball, which a kid is holding; the paper boats which carelessly float and gets stuck to the deserted basil plant; I also watch the old, yellow and tattered copy of Anna Kareninna on my bed side and smell its pages...I stand up and drink the earthy water and try to smell the fragrance of earthen pot...I watch the dimly lit living room and fall in love with the blue ceiling and my pink couch. I sit near the window and see the basil plant swaying with the wind, I also see the thick clouds blanketing the sky and wind turning the umbrellas....I thought of my arguable inability to sketch and strum the chords of guitar. If I were good at sketching, I would have captured everything. I also thought of humming - sound of silence,

Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision
Which was planted in my brain
Still remains
In the sound of silence

Discerning the thoughts, feelings and the vision... I play on


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Night was quite something, I wanted :)
I read, re read Anna Kareninna....watched legally blond again (do not know which nth time), laughed to hilt...Friends told me not to cook, for we had a small party. I was glad!

Everybody came late, we ate and laughed...and I blissfully went to sleep.

Right now......

Right now I want to lie in my cosy bed, with music playing on a volume high enough to make me feel something is playing on and low enough to make me blissfully doze off.

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A way to evade the usual schedule is to take break from the montony of life..all said and done, people go for travelling here and there....no, m not thinking about another vacation.....I am in a state of nostalgia, or may be I feel subtle and poetic.

I will probably write post lunch something about my feeling- the nostalgia that evoked a sudden desire of taking an early leave from the workplace and doing whatevva pleases me..no occasion, no date, or maybe a solitary date with myself!

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I remember my series of solitary dates, when I've done whatever I felt like doing. I dug myself to my favourite books, choco-hooked myself, took no calls, allowed no disturbances, daydreamed, didn't check on my etiquettes, didn't mind my language when I penned down something, didn't care about neighbours and played loud, didn't give a damn to the calories intake when I gorged playfully.

Right now I feel the same..and I will be doing the same :)