It was last week when I talked to him. Oh no... no one special, just a friend who works in Delhi and called after quite some time. I had to mention him in my blog coz the kinda conversation we had made me speechless, not because it was gross or shocking or jarring or blah blah...but due to lack of context and contemplation....
This has nothing to do with indian politics..i know a lot of us feel estranged coz it takes us for granted..or nothing is right..or has not served the purpose yet..whatever!
My idea of writing this is only coz of the day to day hassles, one feels in their personal life; coz you look for some answers to the questions you can never ask. I know u do not feel strange, but just think about this.....
It was chilly..too cold to venture out and he was sitting warm in his blanket....suddenly his colleague turns up. She is cold as one can be in their grave. And she has come to discuss work. But her condition is bad and guess what the good guys will do. Make her feel warm, give her something to drink and doing every possible thing to change her pale grey skin tone. And with that helplessness, that plot, circumstances.
The seductive mustiness and come hither play (created by God) or maybe God is testing u..He is ...can two people ignore it? Yes...No...Maybe yes..maybe no...I do not know.
My friend succumbed to it...
Now I know that my friend feels guilty coz he is already engaged with another great friend of mine. And she is least aware of the infidelity...not infidelity but a mistake....but i feel strange on how easily small mistakes, infidelity, extra n pre marital affairs, side affairs, office interests have mingled and amalgamated with 'relationships'.
The couples are happy with each other...not sorry about whatever is done, was done....damage is already done....past is dead, bury it..live the present....that is what he said when he narrated and said he wanted to confess this to me.
He feels guilty..but is not sorry.
He wanted an outlet to release the thoughts, he's been taming all the while.
'conscience hurts, when other parts of your body feels great' - i read it somewhere and now i know why did he call.
